Awakening, the deep remembering
- KitsuneMarie
- Jul 11, 2021
- 4 min read
*trigger warning* trauma, abuse, graphic art
"The body I was laying next to, all at once, became more familiar than the one I have lived in for the past 29 years. The awareness filled and consumed us both instantaneously.
My sibling, my equal, my lover, my support, my brother. He was all of this and more than I could ever express. He IS all of this and more than I could ever express.
We are are order and sync, we are nothing and everything, we always were and will always be. the chaos, through division, birthed this universe, this reality. It is everything that WE are, have been, and ever will be.
Everything is an expression of God. everything is an expression of Us. Everything is an expression of me. Everything is an expression of him. Everything is an expression of you. We are all and expression of "God".
to know this eradicates all that this illusion that society creates to blind and consume us. It is the purpose of this reality, to live, become blind, and reawaken countless times. Until there is absolutely no way for our eternal self to ever be disillusioned again. this Earth plane is a training grounds to continually face our toughest truths and to over come them. so we will no longer have any doubt.
Once our doubts are eradicated through lifetimes of experiences and knowledge then the division will cease and we will be a singularity again."
I so love stumbling upon journal entries I had jotted down after a powerful experience. I can relive those moments and even their potency. This reality has an ability to distract us and take away the beautiful moments, especially for me. I often tell those closest to me that I feel I have some form of amnesia. For some reason I cannot hold on to my knowing in moments that my depression or anxiety hold me back. How can i experience these beautifully potent pieces of life and still get drawn down to a place I have no hope. To a place i feel this world and those in my life would be better off without my exitance? This is one of the top reasons I have decided to collect my thoughts and experiences and to share them with the world. So I wont be able to forget.
This was one of the most powerful metaphysical experiences my partner Mr. Willie and I had been gifted. Mr. Willies ability to transverse what he called "the in between" and bring other souls into this plane has been powerfully curated over decades of pain and isolation.
He and I shared this experience about six months into our relationship. I cant fully explain to you in words what this feels like. I have done some meditation, astral travel. and what i call the soul dance. This is all of the above and more its more like a clocking out of this reality and living in our actual reality for a moment.
Mr. willie has spent so much of his life in this place that its more comfortable for him to exist there than on this earth plane. here is filled with so much pain, trial after trial. Especially for Mr. willie, he has been diagnosed with cluster headaches and suffered from them for most of his life. He takes care of his elderly mother who just so happens to still suffer from alcoholism.
Mr. Willie doesn't claim to be an artist, yet there have been moments that he has captured great emotion with art.
This piece he named "The Fall" it represents the fall of consciousness in humanity, in a very real way. He is continuously faced with this graphic scene as his mother falls often while drinking. His hands have wiped the blood from countless wounds upon his own mothers skull. Continually being reminded that he has no control over the pain in this life. His arms have scooped her up and lifted her back into a safe place as she mumbles and drunkenly condemns him. This is just one piece of the pain Mr. willie has faced in this life. Its no wonder he became lost in his "in between."
I remember how Mr. Willie describes what he saw and felt the first time he and I met. It was the first kinky munch that had been hosted in my hometown since I became active in the kink community. before then I had been driving an hour and a half at least to meet with anybody within the community.
As I walked up the the group, apparently my energy pulled everyone's attention, not to mention I was in full makeup and KIT mode. I was in my own power, beginning to know my own worth and it was blatantly visible, (I had no idea)
I'm going to get him to share how he saw me in his own words guys, because He writes beautifully and I am trying to motivate him to share more of his work.
For real though, If any of you know what you are doing with your knowing of the meaning of life I would love to hear it here. >>>
Remember, Love is Everywhere!
- <3 KIT
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